Work Crush, defined
I saw the Storyteller a couple of days ago. I found myself feeling a bit romantic and mushy towards him. He’s great, don’t get me wrong… but I don’t see myself falling in love with him or anything!
I think my problem is that I need someone to love. And since I don’t really have someone in my life to receive that, I’m finding myself subconsciously pretending to have very romantic feelings for whomever I am with. I have the energy and need a place to put it, I guess.
I’m having dinner with the Out of Towner next week (made sure to invite others). I think I’m developing what can only be described as a work-crush: A non-sexual, non-romantic, crush-like, professional and personal admiration for a coworker. This, too, is probably an extension of my having a certain kind of energy right now, but not having anywhere to properly put it.
And I hate to admit it, but I still think about Idiot Selfish person. This is annoying, because I did not think about this person AT ALL when we weren’t speaking, prior to all the emails and texts and such. I don’t miss or want to be with this person, but I think of Idiot Selfish person… getting hit by a car, bumping into me at a restaurant, showing up in the Gossip Column of the local paper. I don’t know why.
