I don’t want to brag, but…
Well, I don’t want to brag, but I think my self-medication plan is working. I was feeling somewhat better yesterday. Today, about 50% of the people in my office were cranky, and I was NOT one of them! Yay! I almost feel like my old self. Drawback is I sleep really deeply now, which makes it difficult to get out of bed in the morning.
We had people from out of town in the office last week, though not THE “Out of Towner”. It went well enough. I put my foot down about losing yet another weekend to doing yet another “emergency” project… and guess what? The world didn’t come to an end. Everything is still standing. And I finished the project on Tuesday morning, just like I said I would.
I received at least a half-dozen texts, voicemails, and emails from Idiot Selfish person last week, all invites to lunch, dinner, or drinks. I finally left a voicemail on Idiot Selfish person’s work phone after-hours. It was along the lines of:
“I got your messages. Not free for lunch tomorrow, I have a meeting… But the truth is, I will never be free for lunch. Or drinks. Or dinner. I’m glad we’re on speaking terms and I dont’ mind catching up every now and then, but we are not ‘friends’ and I just don’t want to hang out with you. And to be honest, it’s kind of weird that we stopped seeing each other because you don’t have time for me, and now you seem to have all the free time in the world. If you really have all this free time, I suggest you find someone new to spend it with.”
It reads more harshly than (I believe) it sounded. I swear.
The next day, after Idiot Selfish person had already left me a text and a voicemail asking about drinks that night, I received an email thanking me for my honesty. And I haven’t heard from Idiot Selfish person since. (Which is exactly what I wanted!) 
Oh, back to work. One of the people in town last week is also one of the Two-Faced Smiling Liars. I’ll spare the details, but yeah, his behavior was as expected. At least I didn’t take anything personally and I called him on his shit a couple of times.
I had lunch last week with a coworker of mine who works in a different division of the larger department we are both housed under. She confirmed that a lot of my compaints about my group are actually true for our entire department, and that the rest of our gigantic company knows we (our department) is generally fucked up. It was a comforting and distriburing conversation.
I also met with HR to chew the fat and revisit some of those same issues. Not sure they are really going to address anything. I’ve decided to just care less about work in general, and that seems to be working to save my sanity and minimize my stress.
