Yup
So it’s about 3am, mid-week. Lack of sleep, crappy work stuff, broken heart I’m trying to ignore…
Yup. Welcome to the greatest blog of all time. Very original, I know.
Trying to resist eating ten tons of junk food or writing inappropriate emails to make myself feel better. Thought the new blog might help/distract.
I hate how one or two small things (or people) can so easily ruin one’s day (and evening, and the following morning, as it were). Stupid people who are liars or selfish or both. People who are insecure and then act like idiots. People who don’t deliver on their words. People who suck and continue to suck and have no interest in self-improvement.
Three people are bugging me right now.
-One has a serious character flaw that results in some really dumbass behavior (I’m not saying I am flaw-free by any means, but I think I limit my dumbass behavior when at work!).
-Second person continues to act both selfishly and cluelessly, but whose fault is it that s/he has not “lived and learned” yet? Well, maybe s/he is an idiot, and therefore not responsible for her/his actions. I’m still debating that one internally. It’s the broken heart factor that keeps me from being clear-headed.
-Third person is a flat-out deceptive bastard. Kind (etc) to one’s face, but a different story when talking to others or while waiting for following-up on words exchanged in private.
First person acts our of insecurity, so actions are almost forgivable.
Second person acts of our selfishness, which is not forgivable. But there is also the stupidity factor. But which came first, the stupidity or the selfishness? I think the answer is important.
Third person is slimey and not to be trusted. <Note to self on that one.>
Funny story: I have a friend who only calls me when she needs something (help moving, stuff like that). Today she asked me for advice because she has another friend who is always and only asking her for help, and she doesn’t know what to do about it.
That, friend, is the definition of irony.
Oh! Just realized that first person (above) also deals with slimy person (above). Maybe s/he has also fallen victim to said slimeball, and took it out on me? It’s possible. Hmm.
I wish I had a fool-proof, go-to trick up my sleeve for cheering myself up. A year ago, I may have emailed Stupid/Selfish person (above), but now I want nothing to do with said person. A year ago, the responding email from that person would have been very comforting and uplifting. Now I find emails from said stupid selfish jerk to be.. well, stupid and selfish. And boring. Blah blah blah about the other person, no interest in me or my life. Then why keep contacting me?!?! Leave me alone! There is a reason you always go straight to voicemail, dummy!
Screw it. I’m going to eat some cookie dough. Because I can. 
